This is an anxiety based piece focused on what it is like to be in the midst of a panic attack. Sometimes the symptoms are different, but most of the time this is how I feel; like I am trapped behind glass. I am able to see what is happening, however it’s a surreal experience watching myself go through the attack, but unable to stop it.
This piece was inspired by the idea that black people are only ‘thugs’ and cannot achieve anything more than stereotypes such as being a rapper or basketball star. Even the black people who are considered ‘thugs ‘ are not just thugs. That is only the facade that they project or allow others to see. I wanted to convey the other, glossed over facets of a black person; the underlying potential a lot of people either purposely ignore or don’t take the time to see.
It wanted to do a piece based on maintaining my composure, especially in public. The yarn is like an analogy for life; it was hard to tie and even now keeps slipping off, but I just have to try harder and keep tying it despite the difficulty. This is 9 different canvases so that the cracks show through. It represents how impossible a task it is to remain impervious all the time.